I didn't sleep well last Wednesday night. My mouth hurt but more importantly there were a number of worries and concerns flying around in my mind. On top of the home remodel, life is still going on and many people within our sphere of love and caring are struggling. That meant Thursday, I was tired and not my best. Unfortunately, that is not the best time to make decisions of any kind--even fairly unimportant ones like how to design the fireplace surround or what tile I wanted in the kitchen. In fact, I was backtracking on the choices I had already made. In the face of more important things, I was stuck with these weird doubts about tile and fireplace. And while they were not the most important things, it felt like I needed to decide so that I could move on to the more important things. (And while there is a bit of a timeline to get the tile ordered, it was more flexible than I was feeling on that day.)
So, I prayed about the tile and fireplace surround--I know, weird! It isn't that important, but at the time, I needed to get it off my list and I needed to feel right about it. And I prayed about it off and on through the day as I sipped my liquids and napped. I spent some time on the internet looking at fireplace surrounds that might work and collected 4 possible options. Friday morning I prayed about it again (along with the many other things on my list). As I headed to the tile shop one more time to grab my "choices" to share with our contractor that afternoon, I again explained how I needed to get this selection done. As I approached the store, I felt a confirmation about the fireplace tile--that it could work with one of the examples I had found; AND an idea of a tile for the kitchen backsplash came into my head. It was one similar to one I had considered but different in scale than I had considered, but as soon as I thought of it, I realized that is exactly the right thing for our kitchen. In just a couple of minutes, I made those decisions and seriously had a peace about it that I recognized as a gift to me--an answer to a prayer about a minor thing but it removed some worry from me to focus on the other things that needed (and still) needed to be focused on.
Now, I wish some of the other worries I have could be resolved in that way, but my experience with the Spirit has taught me that timing is super important and also people's agency. Sometimes answers and solutions require time, action, and patience.
But I am grateful that a loving Heavenly Father chose to bless me in this small way to remind me that my prayers (all of them) are heard and responded to even if all the answers aren't here yet.
When have you felt the Spirit lately and had your own little miracle?
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